beg for the pain

Tentacles wrap around my invisible voice

Why do I act like there wasn’t a choice?

I guess I’ll stay up all night waiting to die

The promise is no one will ever say goodbye

Turn up the volume when my words get sung

Stuck in an age that begs me to stay young

I’m writing a book to show my original work

You won’t get satisfaction from the perks

Sometimes I honestly beg for the pain

I forget the issues that made me change

How do I stop trusting my very own brain?

I can’t believe I’m in this place again

It isn’t your fault that you needed to change

The clowns make up melted on stage