something says

There once was a time when I wasn’t alive

Life means nothing when you use to survive

There once was a feeling on the calendar

It was circled in red, it was marked for her

Did it ever work? When did the tables turn?

My brain holds me back until I finally learn

Maybe the day will come and I’ll never know

I prayed for this version of my self long ago

Something says no when I just try to cope

I hardly noticed the growth is way too slow

There are days I betray myself and my oaths

But something says that I am finally close

I wonder if they knew what they’d say

All the pain trained me for this day