brave (deluxe)
I’m already brave
the achievers downtown don’t make a sound
they are too busy crying that you’re not around
it only makes a difference if you survive the funeral
he only attended because he’s a fucking criminal
I’ve read all the books that tell my story in words
But I’m still writing mine cause I’ve got the nerve
the experts say I’m already brave
the word victim puts me on stage
every day, I have to write a new page
it’s not my fault that I had to change
the last breath of a hero happens at birth
hello grace foreman, welcome to Earth
opinions created daily (OCD)
Space doesn’t mean my lips won’t scream
The names of the children that I only dream
Could you guess that my fear makes it all real?
Don’t tell me you can control how you feel
In the total event that you are to live
You will get it wrong and be punished
My thoughts have opinions created daily
Saying those words labeled me crazy
When I was questioned, I said it was hazy
And that’s when I mourned my only baby
I wasn’t alive to say that I envy your pride
But that emotion is something I won’t hide
everyone can tell (ECT)
The illusion that you gave me a second chance
Only rings true today but never in the past
Do you ever wonder if it happened for romance
Show me what to become if you want a man
If you disappear, I’ll start making my own plans
Like I’m a spy, no one can understand
everyone can tell there’s a story to tell
but I’m hooked on oxygen I have to steal
run, baby, run before an electric meal
I think of you even though you’re not real
The last phone call was an accident
But I can finally see what was happening
babysitting my brain
I tied the promise tight enough to ensure my luck
It was only an excuse when the lightning struck
Stumbling around, I drew a smile from a frown
Why do you want to erase it with a new sound
Letting the business begin with broken promises
Help, my Lord, they’ve taken me hostage
I’m too busy babysitting my brain
For you to tell me you’re in pain
It’s not that I don’t want to complain
Talk to me when you’re in a campaign
A step back doesn’t mean anything
No matter what the others think
brilliant phases (BP)
The last of the news was the hardest to prove
But when it gets hard, it’s the one that I choose
It’s hard to believe it was hiding dormant for years
But the job isn’t real, they made me a volunteer
My passion was stolen by my own self indulgence
The twisted wires were what stole the moment
Hung on the wall, I painted brilliant phases
Dreams only buy art if you were to make it
It’s like an addiction I’m not allowed to quit
The sides of my brains are who I share with
You actually thought that I would die
But you just taught me how to survive
a day heals THE damage (ADHD)
I swam down the path by swallowing you whole
Is it a problem that I believed I need you to grow
The doctors signed the papers requesting more
That’s when the game let me keep the score
I never realized because he prescribed a pill
I never told them it was my only coping skill
A day heals the damage of yesterday’s weight
My insides are burning and my brain decays
Do you know that it’s hard because it’s true
Remember to sign I can do it with a tattoo
It’s time to know your struggles aren’t new
And I don’t have to prove anything to you
professional
I don’t want to give up, but I’ve already tried
My brain just couldn’t help me pick a side
A degree you can’t see signed on my knees
Five years of promise just to know a disease
God taught me patience to die on the cross
No resurrection means it’s a creative loss
Does that mean I’m a professional?
I mean, I deserve to be a know it all
The emergency lines dropped the call
A dozen wounds always seems small
Are you happy with the solution to reason?
May it all fall with the change of the season
particular times say die (PTSD)
The threats I conceal under the version of real
Never gave me the chance to properly heal
Now it’s day 1,825 cause the agents didn’t reply
It’s not cause I’m pretty, it’s cause I’m paralyzed
Plotted plans and revenge that I always binge
After you touched me, I committed my first sin
I never wanted to get high
But particular times say die
How many years can you hide?
Before particular times say die
I feel like I know you, but you don’t pay rent
I am the percentage of women I represent
