TRUE GENIUS (deluxe)

TRUE GENIUS

There’s this feeling I get when I want to live

I will spend days begging my brain for it

The files didn’t track each disease I keep

I scream cause I’m the imposter no one sees

They told me if you study, there is money

Now I just want someone to think I’m funny

And then I ask how can drugs be the cause

If I never really tried to quit at all?

A true genius can tell when I’m not well

Having to say it is my own version of hell

Will it stop snowing when I finally melt?

White padded walls make me want to rebel

They never knew how much I wrote

A true genius knows where to keep her notes

A VENDETTA

my dreams are so big there’s a word for it

Each morning I create like a thousand lists

I get goosebumps thinking of a life to live

The butterflies come when I know I did

Do I believe my worth has to be achieved?

My soul met my brain and they both agreed

The pressure suffers in becoming a mother

God says there’s a plan making me tougher

And the path was said to end in death

When will I actually take my last breath?

Because I have to prove I was worth it

It’s a vendetta that only works if I exist

Delusions made it seem like it’s everything

Mark my words when I say I can do anything

GLASS HOUSE

The tip of my tongue knows we are done

Nothing is special when they’re all the one

I criticize with words that meant to be yours

Realizing you are nothing was the only cure

You never knew the me that fought through

And if you heard rumors, they were never true

My signature is the same if you claim fame

I wonder what you’ll think hearing my name

It’s like a glass house they built right now

Years pass til my screams bring it down

That’s when they stopped coming around

I live in the ruins of that same old town

People return after the worst

That’s when you know it worked

BEFORE I GOT HIGH

Somedays I remember how it was to be her

That was a pure before I left to find the cure

The bottle was something that I could follow

I wish I could go back to relieve this sorrow

Never thought that one day I’d have enough

That’s the real reason why I’m so tough

Gentle and kind meant there was no high

In my opinion, it’s actually the reason why

Before I got high, I had no faith in time

Does it get credit because I survived?

Alone on top of the mountain I climbed

None of my success was actually mine

I whisper I’m proud when no one’s around

And I am the reason my body was found